Screwed by the State and then some...

To be screwed by that very entity that you are supposed to have faith in is almost like your BF or Husband cheating on you. Same feeling...total fricking suckness. Unemployment may NOT be coming through after all. My IC status of the last year has clouded my ability to collect or at least for now when the funds are needed the most. What is a person to do? I am reaching an all time low in my life...(just a few more moment of the bitch-fest and I will be done) and contemplating applying for a caregiver job at the local Senior center. Is this a bad thing? I think not...really...Food on the table and money to pay the mortgage is imperative and time is running out. OK I am DONE...moving on to the brighter things in life like our trip this weekend.

San Francisco during the holidays is most spectacular. We have been taking this trip for years now and it never gets old. I don't think we are going to make the King Tut exhibit this trip, but the ambiance of the city will be enough for me.

My Sweetpea has been very sweet during this challenging time and understands the need for thriftiness in the gift-giving/receiving department. Her list has changed, as has mine. What at one time was a extravagant display of spending on friends and family (shopping at only the best stores and high-end gifts) has become a more intimate form of what small item means the most right now. A truly thoughtful gift from the heart is more in the Christmas spirit anyway. Giving those few precious dollars to the bell ringers of the Salvation Army are more important than the bottle of booze to someone who really doesn't need it!

New Year's resolutions coming soon...in the meantime...wish me luck on the job search!!